How can I change my life? I need serious help!!!!!?

Ever since I was born, I wasn't good at anything. Right now, I'm 16 and I feel like giving up. I feel like I wasted my life. Lately, I've been feeling a bit suicidal, but I know that's not what I should do because there's a chance of achieving my dream.



I know it's really out there, but I want to be a billionaire and own a some sort of business that deals with gaming devices, computers, computer hardware, tv's, and other eletrical devices. No matter what kind of jobs I think of, I always think of something like that.



So anyway, back to the present. I've just been feeling so down. Everyday, I play games for hours. I'm basically spending my life playing Call of Duty 4, and other games on my 360. C.o.D. 4 is very addicting and it's hard for me to put the controller down. Oh yeah, when I'm playing, sometimes I have good games and other's I suck. When I suck, I get so angry and feel llike throwing my stuff out or against the wall. That's how angry I get at something so stupid!!!



If I'm not playing games, I'm either reading (I don't have a problem with that) or watching stuff on Youtube or pornography. That stuff is so stupid and it's the same **** over and over. I try to stop, I even pray to God about it, but nothing helps it. I can't go more than a day without looking at it or you know what else. I know and understand that it's wrong and it is a sin, but it's just too good sometimes. I really want to stop, but I can't find the way!



Another major problem is that I have very little friends. My inbox on Myspace is always empty, and very rarely someone calls my cell phone. I would really like to have more friends, but whenever I'm out, I feel like being back at home or by myself. My mom was very similar to me, but my dad was the oppisite. Speaking of which, he had so many girlfriends at my age and younger. I never had one! It's pretty sad to say, but everytime I get close I either screw up or I thik, %26quot;this isn't for me.%26quot; A girlfriend would be nice to have, but it's not necessary. I just suck with that, just like everything else.



This is the last problem that I'll discuss. My grades in school. I've been doing a lot better, but ever since public school, I haven't made honors once. I've spent most all of my life in Catholic school (I made honors once or twice then). I've been in Honors courses in History and this year it will be History and English. I just wish that I was smart enough to be in all honors like everyone else from my school. I'm probably the lowest or second lowest kid from my old school in public. I want to be in honors (which I'll be in two) with them and hang around with them more. They don't like me that much because they have their own group. I used to be in it at my old school, but now they hardly acknowledge me. It's just so depressing for me.



I wan to do better, but there's always someone or something to prevent me. It never fails. There's always obsticals and I just go down when they want me too. No matter how hard I try! Somtimes I feel that life isn't worth it because everyone will die in the end. So I think, %26quot;what's the use?%26quot;



I'm sorry that it looks so big, I understand if you get discouraged from reading but I really need help. How can I change? I really want to and I want to get up to where I want to be. I just need some help and ideas.



Thanks!!!How can I change my life? I need serious help!!!!!?
Music always helps me.

It might be best to try and play something, like the guitar.

(if you want some help with it, you can email me, or something. I'll gladly give you some tips!)

Its really something that can take your mind off things.

And just because you dont have many friends, doesnt mean anything.

As long as you have one good one that is always there for you. You might even get better grades, because of less distractions.

Oh, and life is worth it.

Just think of the future, like when you have a family.

I hope I helped!How can I change my life? I need serious help!!!!!?
You sound a lot like me. I was a smart kid in catholic school, switched to public school, didn't know how to have a relationship with a girl really because there were so few at the catholic school..and so on and so on.



So here's my advice. Stop believing in God, read a philosophy book, sell your video games, stop being a baby and just have sex with a girl.How can I change my life? I need serious help!!!!!?
thts long i dont feel like reading it.............